in the army

In this cold,
sad autumn night,
I'm sitting here,
under the trees.
Everything is freezing,
nothing happens.
It's a waste,
to be here.
I look in the sky
and see the stars.
I remember your sillouette,
it's so beautiful,
that warms up my heart.
I hear your heartbeat,
but you're not there.
Here,
I feel like an everyday loser,
so tell me,
that this is just a bad dream.
I count every minute,
you're not around me.
It's the most important thing,
to see you just some hours the week.
There area so many things,
I want to say.
You're the first real love,
I've ever found.
But tell me,
how to win your heart.
Time won't change,
the way I feel about you.
Now, that I've said all this,
I feel better for some hours,
so that they can pain me again.
But keep in mind:
each word
is a beat of my heart,
so please listen to me.
All this keep's me alive,
in this cold dark lonly night.
MZ

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